The emotional distancing both frustrated and intrigued me. I think one of the things that made us last so long was the desire to find out what the other person felt. On the positive side, this relationship is particular was my longest. Also, neither of us ever felt we could express our playful, romantic sides around one another I felt he would not approve of any kind of childishness from me, so I kept my mouth shut. The same went for affection affection did not flow easily between us due to deep-seated fears of rejection, which was ultimately frustrating for both parties. Even though I knew he had true feelings for me, self-doubt and fear of rejection would take over, and I’d end up keeping my feelings to myself. I felt that if I told him how I felt, he would reject me, and he felt the same way. Even when problems arose which made either one of us feel angry, annoyed, jealous, or frustrated, we would not, and COULD not, voice our feelings to one another. Him and I would do anything to avoid talking about our feelings. The way it manifested in my relationship was through major emotional distancing. How does this aspect play out between two people, you may ask? Let me tell you. By “double-whammy”, I mean his Moon opposed my Saturn and his Saturn opposed my Moon. I recently came out of a relationship that had a Moon-Saturn opposition double-whammy. I tried my best to keep my Saturnian energy in check, but when it came down to it, I simply couldn’t help but criticize him. I was already into astrology when I met the Aquarius guy, so I knew this energy would manifest in our relationship somehow. In those two relationships, I felt that I was scolding my misbehaving children. The Sun-Saturn energy in synastry is much like the energy between a parent and child. When I look back, I know I was a bit too harsh with them, but I felt (and STILL feel) they were childish and needed a good reality check. This, in turn, discouraged them greatly, but I felt I was doing them a favor. Instead of calmly voicing my own opinions, I insulted theirs. Sounds harsh, I know, but some of their opinions and beliefs simply pissed me off. I didn’t want them to “grow”, because I was too afraid they would grow apart from me.Īnother reason I was so critical of these two guys was because I genuinely thought their ideas, feelings, and beliefs were incredibly stupid. I wanted to dominate them, control them, and stomp on their fun. In response, I criticized them and judged them harshly. Just by being themselves and expressing their individuality, my fears of rejection and getting hurt surfaced. Each one of them brought out many of my insecurities. Indeed, my relationships with those two lasted quite a few years, but it wasn’t without difficulty.Īs the Saturn person, I felt both insecure and committed to each of them. Sun-Saturn aspects in synastry are apparently very common aspects to find in the synastry charts of married couples and long-term partners. Incidentally, he had Saturn transiting his 7 th house when we were together. My most recent ex had his Sun in Aquarius square my Saturn in Scorpio. More specifically, my Saturn was conjunct his Sun in Scorpio. It made total sense, given the fact that Saturn was transiting my 7 th house at the time. My first ex boyfriend and I had strong Saturn aspects in our synastry chart. Saturn aspects are certainly binding, but come with many problems. Saturn represents depression, restriction, fear of rejection, distancing, as well as commitment. Saturn aspects in synastry are notoriously difficult to handle.
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